You know, I look out at this world and see all of the 'happiness and love' that radiates within and outward from the people within my physical sphere.
Then I look at the percentage of this 'happiness and love' per person ratio, and realise that a vast majority of it seems to have an initial starting point: stemming from ME.
So then what I see, is that the laws of karma itself are (for lack of a better and less annoyed word) FUCKED, which in turn leads me to question the very basis of my inherit, ongoing self-detrimental 'happiness and love' theory in the first place.
If I were to give and give and give a damn about specific, physical, spherical people a million times over - there's always going to be some recipients who are so slow and early in their current cycle of this "universe" (or physiological matter of their ultimate ending-intentions, this time around) that won't ever return it.
Logic dictates that I should still continue nonetheless with this, or at the very least tolerate it. But what seems to happen lately, is that due to the large, empty, gaping hole that life's unfortunate turn of events has given me the experience of: those people who don't give a shit WON'T give a shit for the rest of our shared cycle anyway.
-My whole energy and being is becoming deflated.
Whether or not I procure people a 'ticket' to share an experience with years ago, or whether I do it now; I can not possibly do anything but offer it with my love.
